anger...

Anger..

A common feeling..

A feeling which hard to control..

A feeling which hard to lose..

A feeling which easy to express..

A feeling which easily makes a person lose themselves..

well..i've been having this feeling quite a lot lately..

and i HATE to feel that way..

I'm am not that kind of person who express why am i angry to that particular person ..cos

when i'm angry, i become wordless..

Maybe cause i hate explaining stuff, especially to the persons i thought they will understand me..

and maybe i care too much what other people is thinking..

So, sometimes i prefer to keep quiet and let it fade..i know.. it doesn't solve the problem..

how nice, if this feeling vanish..

ya..chill~

ps: my blog is filling up with all pathetic post, i guess i should really cheer thing up a little bit..

invisible by taylor swift

She cant see the way your eyes light up when you smile

Shell never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by

And you can’t see me wantin you the way you want her

But you are everything to me

[Chorus:]And I just wanna show you

She dont even know you

She will never love you like

I want to

You just see right thru me but if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

Theres a fire inside of you that cant help much Im through

Shes never gonna see the light

No matter what you doAnd all I think about is how to make you think of me

And everything that we could be

[Chorus]

Like shadows in a faded light

Oh we're Invisible

I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize

I just wanna show you she don't even know you

Baby let me love you let me want you

You just see right through me

But if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

She can't see the way your eyes light up when you smile

ps : a song i spotted from my sis player, which represent what most ppl been through b4 or now and one of my past..good luck to those who r still going through this stage..

Besides, it's a nice song..

=]

tired...

I've been sleeping quite late these days..

burning midnight oil for my midterm exams...

I'm so afraid that i never make it in time..

yet..so darn tired with it..

imagine reading over 50 slides per chapter and few chapter a day..

OMG..

It's not that i am not interested..but..

the slides is like so DRY..and some of the contents are like repeating..

although i am almost done with most of the slides for ONE subject ONI

but i DON'T EVEN KNOW a damn thing what am i reading..

argh!

i am like wasting my time reading those thing where else nothing enters my head..

mayb like what paka( cheok hoong) said " Exam is just a process"

busyyyyy...

busy busy busyyy busyyyyyy..

That's the word to describe my day...

My recent life now is just fill with assignment...lecture notes..group work..

fuh..haardly..breath...

i've even abandon my gym for these..

I guess the gym management people will really like me a lot..

Paid for RM 200 plus for 3 months but only went for 4 times..

hmm..i better stop writing and get back to work..else..i really flung my midterm this time..

grrr...

independent~

hmm..independent..

Today i was made no choice but to drive all alone to kf (Kingfisher) to buy lunch for myself , my sis and housemates, get things print for my sis, and get an aloevera lotion for her too..

Well..i don't really like going out alone actually ..
but sometimes, life includes a lot of things which we don't like right? Hence, bear with it..
My sis wasn't able to accompany me because she has a serious sunburn that she hardly even walk (i'm not blind that i can't see how suffer she is and that heartless to let her walk that much)..So, i told her to stay at home..
While guan sing, I think he got his own reason..he say he wana make me more independent..and i still owe him..

hmm..In the end, i stomped on the oil accelerator which it reached 100kmph without realising..switch on a real loud music..driving like a maniac.. all the way to kf..

Lucky for me that there's parking space at each places i need to go..Usually it is really difficult to find a parking space especially during lunch hours..So, my misery is lessen there..

Done all the stuff I need to do, then again..drove like a maniac back to my home..lolz..
I tend to drive real crazy when i'm alone in car..maybe because it involves only my life if there's an accident..so no worries..

Reach home, bring all the stuff down..A little proud of myself because everything done smoothly..

mamutik & manukan~

At the speed boat ( me and my sis)

Guan Sing! (eagerly playing with the SLR the whole time)

View of the Mamutik island

My sis camwhoring at the manukan island jetty (konon la feeding fish..)

me! doing the same thing..lolz

us..

me again..

eating magnum that cost RM5! we thought of buying 2, after knowing the price.. i told my sis "share ba"..i'm such a cheapo..lolz

I went to mamutik and manukan island today!

well..with whole bunch of mechanical engineering students( i'm computer science)..

ya..odd...My sis ( studyin first year in mechanical engineering) asked me to accompany her.. hmmm..so..have to..and i drag guan sing to accompany me..poor guy..
hahahaahah...

We had our breakfast at mcd at 6.30am..cos we scare that we'll trap in a traffic jam..
I woke up at 5.15am and slept at 3am the night before.. so my eyes were like =.=
but my sis slept later than me.. yet more awake than me..
guan sing is worst.. he didn't sleep the whole night..so his energy level is like erm..20%?

So, we met up with guan sing's friends and gather at the Jesselton point..

Wow.. the feeling of being with a bunch of unknown people is really scary..

but luckily guan sing's friends are friendly enough..

We reached mamutik island first..then played some group games..

We are suppose to divide ourselves according to the number..but when the committee members shouted for group number 3..all of us like..straight ran out and shouted "3!!!!!!"

The committee members were like "0.0 WTH?? R U ALL REALLY GROUP 3?"

We were like "YEAHHHH~~~"

Guan Sing said " We are enginneers..we don't lie.."

I was like " I am computer science..lolz"

The games were filling up the bottle and err..holds each other hand and untanggled ourselves?

For the filling up bottle..

2 of our group members sacrificed their clothes (included guan sing) to get the water..while one..used his cap! darn creative..

However, we had to do everything over again because they claimed us for breaking the rules (rules are meant to be broken la.... =.= )

and we did..but we got 2nd place.. not bad after all.. i think the other group cheated too!

For the second game?

not much to say..

Den we went for snorkelling..

Me and my sister do not know how to swim..

so one of guan sing's friend guided her..while guan sing guided me.

i think i'm more to..erm..torturing him?

hahahaahah..

I thought of not burdening him.. so try to "swim" along to lessen his energy usage..

but he claimed that I am more to using much more of his energy..

as i tend to "swim"out to the sea with no sense of direction..

he keep pulling me, grabbing my leg and push me forward..

My sis said he look like bathing his dog (I am the dog)..

Cause he was spinning me around, pulling my life jacket..

then i was like pulling him over for air, and "climbing" on him for support when adjusting my goggle (VERY OFTEN until he fed up with me) ...feel so guilty @.@

hmm..and i hurt my foot cause of stepping on either the coral or stone..

So now.. i am walking with one leg.. (The price i need to pay for going to island.. T.T)

Later, we headed to Manukan island and had our lunch there..

We had two mcchicken burgers for that..

then..snorkle again..

wow..the fishes here are bigger compare to the one in Mamutik island..

and instead of sands.. there are tons of rock at the shore..

my god!

hardly walk..it is like foot massaging..I saw the rest can walk until so slumber..

Am i really that unhealthy?

hahahahaha..

At the sea, we swam to the middle part to get better view of the fishes..

Wow!

i saw lots of blue starfishs.. sea cucumber( eww! i was avoiding myself to step on them..geli-ish )..then i saw lots of colourful fishes.. got one fish camourflages itself with the stone..and I SAW NEMO! hahahaah..clown fish..

hmm..there are a part where the coral are really near me..directly below me by the distance of 4 inches i think

with tons of those black spicky thing( I don't know what it calls..sea urchin?)..
Panic!

i kept shaking my head, making sound, and patting guan sing to push me away..

Then passed it, and reach a place where it's real deep.. i HARDLY see the bottom of it..

panic panic panic!

Then we headed back, where guan sing tried to push me towards a bunch of BIG fishes..

PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC!

I was like "WTH???? NOOO!!!!" and braked myself..LOLZ

Well..not long..guan sing's goggle spoilt..he is really having a bad day..

After snorkeling, we sat down and chatted for a while..before i and my sis went to the jetty and feed the fishy~ and ya.. cam whore! lolz..

Hmm.. in the end of the day..

me had a injured leg..

sis got a real bad sun burned, until the extends that she hardly sit..

guan sing? his 20% energy been absorbed by me..and has several of injuries because of me..

HAHAHAHAAH..

I think i need to repay his dept for quite long time..THANKS HEAH BABY!

word~

Sometimes I hope i am the kind of person who can speaks out for themselves easily and do not care how the other person feels..
Then, i can just shoot the person with whatever stuff in my head and able to defend myself..
Then, I would not need to cry alone, keeping all the stuff to myself or being thought as the "problematic" girl..
Well..it not that easy rite???
If it is that simple, i've already do it earlier..
especially when it involves the one that close to you..
I know that word can meaner than it seems if you don't phrase it in a better way..
and i am no good in phrasing them..
Sometimes..i prefer not to speak out..
not that i don't know how to fight back..
it just that, I don't want thing to end up in arguement..
more to.. i care..

HOLIDAYS AT LAST!

It's been five days I abandon my blog..

hahahahaah..

I was busy doing my other assignments , so..hardly have time to even log in to my own blog..

But now..fuh..half of them are doned..

HALF..sigh..

I was told that the movie entitled Ghost girlfriend from the past ( am I getting the title correctly?) is releasing soon.. FINALLY!
I've been waiting for it for so long..I watched the trailer of it few months ago..and it had my attention since then..I think it is a comedy with some romance, added with few touching moment..I love it's soundtrack!
Well.. i hope it won't disappoint me..
=]

guan sing is sick!!!!

O NO!!!

Nowadays..one by one , my housemates fall sick..

At first, it was cheok hoong..

den..yun yuan..

later serena..

n now HEAH GUAN SING..

OMG!

It's seem like me and my sis is the NEXT on the queue!

PLS MAKE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM STRONGER AND GO THROUGH THIS!

=(

YES!!!!!

I'm finally done with my multimedia technical paper!

MUAHAHAHAHAAH!

SO HAPPY!

well..Every time when i'm done with an assignment, i'll be super happy!

JUMP JUMP JUMP

Although the process of doing the assignment is really frustrating..but..

WHO CARES!

NOW THAT IT'S DONE!

For me, the result is the MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL!

MUAHAHAHAAH~!

=] =] =]

h1n1

HAHAHAHAHAAH..

okie okie..It supposes to be a very serious case which end up becomes a hilarious one..

Well...one of paka's (ch) course mate is examined with H1N1 POSITIVE!

Yup..she was in his class 2day..and only be confirmed with h1n1 this late evening..

Our ( me, gs, and serena..sis was in class..well..yy is his gf after all,so not included) reaction were liked "QUARANTINE WONG CHEOK HOONG!!".

He and all his course mates are compulsory to go for a check up tomorrow.

( That serious..make thing much scarier..)

Paka's reaction is the BEST..

He starts wearing his mask and isolates himself from us! Stand at least a metre away!

LOLZ..

Well..gs wears his mask as well after that..

But the FUNNIEST reaction goes to one of my housemates..

She covers her mouth and nose with a TISSUE!

swt..

I wonder whether can a tissue replaces a mask..else her creativity effort is all wasted..

THAT'S ALL..

Ps : Do take care by sleeping early and drink lots of water..cause the virus attacks our immune system(according to serena)..

sickening..

argh...

I just hate the feeling of vomiting..

Make me can't sleep..cause i'm afraid i'll vomit out..

Ate the traditional medicine "pou chai yun" ( my usual life saviour for upset stomach)..

BUT IT DOESN'T WORK!

oh god..please stop the butterfly in my stomach..

Ps : Moral of the story: Never ever drink a cold water when you are extremely hungry to kill your hunger..

JUS EAT SOMETHING!

happy =]

YES!

Finally done with my assignment..

PEACE! =]

happy happy happy

Well..there is still one more to go..

hmm..but i think i deserve a little rest..so..it shall waits..blekz

I look at you like the stars that shined @_@

Something sweet~

Mary's song ( by Taylor swift)

She said, I was seven and you were nine

I look at you like the stars that shined

In the sky, the pretty lights

And our daddies used to joke about the two of us

Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled

And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my

Take me back to the house in the backyard tree

Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me

You never did, you never did

Take me back when our world was one block wide

I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried

Just two kids, you and I...

Oh my my my my

I was sixteen when suddenly

I wasn't that little girl you used to see

But your eyes still shined like pretty lights

And our daddies used to joke about the two of us

They never believed we'd really fall in love

And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes

And said oh my my my...

Take me back to the creek beds we turned up

Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me

Take me back to the time we had our very first fight

The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight

You stayed outside til the morning light

Oh my my my my

A few years had gone and come around

We were sitting at our favorite spot in town

And you looked at me, got down on one knee

Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle

Our whole town came and our mamas cried

You said I do and I did too

Take me home where we met so many years before

We'll rock our babies on that very front porch

After all this time, you and I

I'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine

I'll still look at you like the stars that shine

In the sky, oh my my my...

assignment + hungry + unnessesary war = T.T

I did it again..

Make people worry about me..Real damn hate myself for doing that..argh..

Well..I cry again..this time in front of serena and my sis..

i don't know where to bury my head in but my pillow( i don't like people see me crying)..

I'm real stress out because of the recent assignment..I had used all sort of way to find the resource needed..BUT I JUST CAN'T GET ANY..WTF!!!!

ARGH..den my stomach just can't stop "guruguruguru" although i feed it with a box of honeystars ( makes me frust even more)..well..now the tears just lost my appetite but yet my stomach still berbunyi..grr..

Bout the unnecessary war..i don't feel like talking about it..it just a bunch of human who complain and back stab other people using a coward way..

Anyway, Thanks for those who really care about me and sorry for letting you all worry..

I wish i am a little stronger than i am now..darn..